valentine's day Baby Jetplane?

valentine's day

Well Mr. Jetplane sure likes to think so...

Yesterday we had seriously 3 conversations about having kids, and each ended with him going..."Oh I didn't think about that!"

Yeah, that's what I thought....

One conversation went something like this...

Mr. Jetplane: "So I was thinking we need to be pregnant by Nov!"

Mrs. Jetplane: "Are you freaking insane?"

Mr. Jetplane: "No, we'll be in NC and I'll be going through training and it would be a perfect time."

Mrs. Jetplane: "Uh, didn't you realize that I'll be pregnant for 9 months, and during that time, you'll finish training and we may have to move to Idaho or England. So I'll be really pregnant, perhaps alone, with 2 dogs, and moving. Uh no."

Mr. Jetplane : "Oh I didn't think about that."

Mrs. Jetplane "Yeah, I didn't assume you did. I would like to have some sense of security, well as much as I can with the military. I would like to be at the same station throughout my pregnancy. We need to figure out insurance..."(right now I have military insurance, but I don't go to the Dr. on base. I also still get insurance from my job on their optical and dental.)

Mr. Jetplane "Ok, well I'm heading into Circuit City, I'll call you back."

So we had 2 more conversations that went similar, except Mister Sweetness informed me that.... "You know you're getting old... ha.. ha.."

Yeah, jackass I know I'm getting old, so are you. I'm only a month a 6 days older than him, and he likes to make me feel like a cougar all the time... annoying much?

Back to the point, we are seriously talking about kids, and this seriously makes me sick to my stomach, and I'm not even knocked up yet.

We want to have kids, but when is the right time. I don't want to be pregnant alone, I want to feel some security, and I'll be honest its scares the living crap out of me.

We'll be moving to NC in August/September and he'll start classes in October. Once he starts we'll be there for 9 months, and then we'll either stay in NC, move to Idaho or England. And he's then technically deployable. So when or when, do the Jetplanes have a baby?

I want to plan a nursery, I don't want to move have to move across the country (or world) during my pregnancy, and I to have developed a group of female friends. Right now, in P'cola I have a small, small handful of friends. Everyone has moved to their next base, and I'm still here working away, making money, without the hubby. Its tough, but its what is best for our family. It made no sense to move to be with him in Texas for 4 months, just to turn around and move again. But now, with his knee, he'll be home in Florida with me until August when he leaves for survival school and then its off to NC.

Oh so much to figure out... I want to have kids, as much as I act like I don't, I do, but it scares the living crap out of me. I'll be 29 this year, I might not be good at math, but that's pretty close to 30 and I'm concerned about my ability to have kids. Not that I have any real medical conditions that make me think that's an issue, its just this internal worry I've always had. I've been on the pill for 10 years now, and that concerns me too. I know everyone says its not an issue, but I worry, that's what I do.

Oh boy... so much to think about and plan. But that didn't stop me from looking up kids furniture and bedding last night... What am I doing?

Also Mr. Jetplane thinks we're going to have 2 boys. Lord help me, I can't have 2 boys. I already have 2 male dogs, and need a girl. Estrogen is most definitely needed in my house.