valentine's day OH Baby!
The Jetplanes have been discussing babies alot lately. But with Mr. knee deep in flight school and a potential deployment occurring in December (yeah that's right, I said December), right now its not in the cards.
Earlier this week Mr. asked me the following question that was sort of off putting, "Why do you want to have a baby?"
Why do I want to have a baby....hmm...
I want to start a family with this man that I love more than anything in this world.
I want to have a baby because I turn 30 in June and I have totally irrational fears that I won't be able to have a baby.
I want to bring something into this world that is a combination of the two of us and our love.
And DAMN IT I just want one... but I'm scared to death, I'll admit it. SCARED TO DEATH about having a child. Scared about how I would handle the load of a child with everything else in my life....especially with future deployments that lie ahead.
Sometimes my crazy mind drifts into the nightmares of seeing myself at home trying to work full time like I do now, with 2 kids, 2 dogs, housework, cooking, etc. all by myself when my husband is deployed...and that causes me some serious heart palpitations.
I know plenty of women do it, heck I may work part time or none at all, who knows, but the fear of that unknown shakes me to my core sometimes...
I know I'm not the only one out there. And I know there are plenty of women, mil wife and non-mil wife, that juggle and struggle through the day to day of having kids, work, home life, heck even a social life...I know I'm going to be looking to them as my role models.
valentine's day Hello Mr. Jetplane's Mouth...Insert Foot
valentine's day valentine's day Barefoot & Pregnant
Yes, my name is Mrs. Jetplane, I'm 29, married, and a proud parent of 2 furbabies and I have a serious addiction to any and all shows about teen pregnancy. I hope the youth of America is as drawn to these shows as I am.
I'll be honest when I watch them, sometimes I'm like "DAMN...Gina.... I'm so not mature enough to have a baby right now!!" Yeah that's right, you heard me...I question if I'm ready to have children and I hope, no I pray, that these young kids who watch this show realize what a HUGE ASS responsibility being a parent is.
I also hope that while watching this show:
1. More pregnant teens realize that adoption is a very valid option for them.
2. Farrah sees that hanging out with dudes all the time, isn't where its at.
3. Amber and Gary both realize that they both need attitude adjustments.
4. Ryan's parents realize that their son is a giant bum and isn't helping their grandson AT ALL.
5. Maci realizes that Ryan is a huge WASTE of time.
6. Tyler and Catelynn live happily ever after.
valentine's day Oh Baby...
And just to make myself clear.... I am over the moon happy for them. But its still a weird conversation, because as I've stated before, I'm still a little immature about the situation (even though I am 29 yrs old). And I still feel like in some ways we aren't old enough to start having babies yet...even though I totally know that we are. I never said I was rational in my thought process about this...
Its just crazy because we've went through years of people NOT wanting to get pregnant and now you are in a time where people are wanting/trying to get pregnant.
Here's how the convo went down...
Lou: "I'm pregnant!!"
Me: "OMG! Really! Seriously! I'm so... wait are we excited? We are excited, right?"
Lou: "Yes! We're happy! It wasn't planned but we're happy!"
Me: "Great! Because I'm totally crying over here! I'm so happy for you guys!"
Its still strange because I feel like, even though we've all been out of college for going on 7 years now...wow 7 years... I still feel like we're those young college girls in our black minis, backless shirts, and knee high black boots...going out hitting the town, doing shots, and dancing to techno music until 5 in the morning...
But (un)fortunately we are not... Our alcohol tolerance has decreased and our skirt lengths have increased but our love for one another has always remained the same.
Now...when are the Jetplanes going to have a baby? Not for some time...
valentine's day There's no crying in Sailing...
Due to my utter craziness at work right now, I'll try to blog about it later today.
Also coming up soon.... blog posts about...
True Blood last night.... Eric I love you.
Jetplanes discussions about babies and potential overseas station... Jetplanes + England = no babies for some time....
valentine's day The TALK...
Just because people (i.e. kids) can have children doesn't mean they should, right? I'm still freaked out by the whole idea of something growing inside me, yes... I told you I was immature about this.
Do I want children... the answer is YES. Does Mr. Jetplane want kids that would be a double YES. When do we want to have them... that is the question. I'm almost 30 and we want to have 2 kids. And I have this irrational fear of not being able to conceive. Also, I had my palm read earlier this year and the woman told me I'd have 2-3 miscarriages in my life. Yes, she could be a total freaking con artist, but still that just feeds my fear.
We move to NC at the end of August. Mr. Jetplane will be in intensive training for 9 months, we're talking 12 to 14 hours day of school and studying (which has to be done on base, since its all "super secret", that what I referred to classified as" having a child, and by having it I mean physically giving birth to it and raising it during those 9 months, is totally OUT OF THE QUESTION. But that being said, getting knocked up during those 9 months could be possible, however unlikely since said training will consume our lives.
So yes... we're getting closer to actually being ready to think about starting to try to have kids. Yes, I know this may seem strange but for us its a big step, ok for ME its a big step. Mr. Jetplane is a big kid, so he's totally fine and not freaked out in the least bit.
We're both going to be 29 shortly, celebrating our 1 year anniversary, and will have been together 5 years in August. So a baby Jetplane may be making an appearance in the next year or so... wow its weird thinking about this.
valentine's day Question for the peanut gallery...
Well, yesterday I found out a co-worker's teenage daughter is pregnant. To add to this drama, this girl was previously pregnant last year but lost the baby. I was shocked to hear she was pregnant again and past the 1st trimester. My co-worker told me that her daughter thinks its this status thing, and all her friends are pregnant.
The first words out of my mouth were, "She needs to go to therapy. She is looking for some form of unconditional love and thinks its going to come from a child. She's 16 and should never had been ready to consider getting pregnant again. A miscarriage can be a life altering situation, and I can guarantee she never dealt with that. And a child is going to take much more love than they give at this point. She is too young to be thinking rationally at this point."
Her mother just said, "She won't go. I put her on the pill and she didn't take them. I think she wanted to get pregnant."
I'm totally shocked and I feel bad for my co-worker. I'm not saying whether or not she should have kept the baby, or if she should have taken the birth control. I'm asking... what is wrong with kids today to think that having babies in high school is something 'cool'?
Its not cool, and what kind of warped sense of reality are you idiots living in?
I was the child of a young mother. I was born before my mom's 20th birthday and my parents got married because of me. This in and of itself was my own personal birth control. Its the reason that I never wanted to get married before 25 and probably why I'm not ready to have kids. My mother was married, divorced, with 2 kids at 25. Why would anyone seek that life out?
I think its part society, but more importantly its how you raise your children. I was raised to always want more for myself... education, good paying job, etc. And I wanted this independent of a man. I always desired to be completely self sufficient. I worry these young girls have no self esteem, horrible self image, and will never overcome these issues...
Thoughts?
valentine's day More of Mrs. Jetplane's Craziness....
I look incredibly young for my age. I'm going to turn 29 this year and I get carded on a regular basis. A couple of years ago, I was sick one weekend and went to the video store to rent some movies. One movie I rented was a foreign film and unrated, I got carded for it. I was 25.
One time I was getting my nails done, and the very sweet lady that been doing my nails looked up and asked me if I was getting my nails down for the prom that was happening that night? Uh no, I was 22.
When I was going through the airport in Chicago a couple of weeks ago, the TSA woman looked at my ID and didn't believe that I was 28. She thought I was in high school, granted I looked like crap since I was hung over as all hell, but still.... high school, are you serious?
Ok, so here's my totally irrational worry... If and when I get pregnant will people look at me and think that I'm some young, unwed mother? Granted I do wear a wedding ring, but still... will they think that I look too young to be pregnant? Will they pity me, worry about me, or just plain think that I'm a young, little girl who got herself knocked up.
Yes, I'm totally weird and crazy, but these are the thoughts that go through my head...
The one thing about good about looking young, I always joke to Mr. Jetplane that he won't have to trade me in on a younger model for a long time....
valentine's day Better Late than never, right?
And I have some upcoming posts of my recent online shopping adventures... my Lilly sweater from Rue La La arrived, a JCrew dress and shirt, and some accessories from F21. I think my UPS guy thinks I have a problem. He got to know me quite well from wedding related deliveries. He knows my dogs' name, my hubby's name, its weird right?
But lately, I arrive home after he been by. He's kinda cute too... oh Mr. Jetplane needs to come home, I'm eyeing the UPS guy.
valentine's day On a serious tip...
My friend is a Captain in the USMC and his wife is a SAHM with 2 adorable lil boys, they are stationed out west. And my heart goes out to them. I will admit that I saw pictures of the youngest boy a couple of months ago on their Facebook pages, and seriously questioned whether he had been diagnosed or not. It appears that he wasn't diagnosed by the doctors at the military hospital initially, the couple questioned it and the Dr. didn't see any issues. Until their 7 month appointment, he requested the tests be run. He is an otherwise healthy and very happy baby boy, but now they're left wondering and worrying about the next steps.
They want to absorb as much information about the disorder and needed therapy as possible. They are a wonderful young couple with an incredible faith. I know they will overcome any and all obstacles that this may cause, but I'm reaching out to you all for any information that I can pass along to them.
On the opposite side of this conversation, while my aunt and uncle were pregnant with my cousin the Dr. told them that she had Down's. My cousin was born, and while she appeared slightly to have the facial characteristics of a child with the syndrome, those soon passed. I'm very happy to report that she is now 24 years old and working toward a Ph.D., very far from any learning disability.
valentine's day Follow Up on My Craziness

I adore the chair, which you can see the arm of in this picture. I wouldn't go all bananas (get it bananas, monkey....) and put monkeys everywhere, but I just love this. I would do the bedding, chair, but probably not the drapes. I wouldn't paint the walls all pink either, its a little pepto for me and most definitely Mr. Jetplane. (oh and I wouldn't paint a monkey on the wall, maybe a light stripe)
But there you go, our hypothetical children and their hypothetical PB nursery. Now I need a hypothetical fortune to buy all this junk...
valentine's day You want to know how crazy I am?
I even found this... 
Which is totally over the top and not what I would do, but its completely adorable. valentine's day Baby Jetplane?
valentine's day valentine's day I love you all, but this is getting out of hand...
I jokingly said that every week someone is announcing they are pregnant. Well, 2 more couples added to the list this weekend. Mr. Jetplane called me and gave me the news.
The conversation went like this....
Mr. J: "Hi babe, I got some news for you."
Me: "Okay, what is it?"
Mr. J: "Are you sitting down?"
Me: "Yes, what is it?"
Mr. J: "Ummm..."
Me: "You're not going to tell me someone else is pregnant are you?"
Mr. J: "Yes... The H's are pregnant (these are Mr. Jetplane's roommates in Texas, right now)."
Me: "That's great they've been trying to get pregnant, which means they have totally been getting it on in the next bedroom... Ha Ha."
Mr. J: "I know don't remind me."
Me: "How far along is she?"
Mr. J: " I don't know, am I suppose to ask, that's kinda personal?"
Me: "Yes, that is a standard question. So who else is pregnant"
Mr. J: "My cousin and his wife (one of Mr. Jetplane's groomsmen and Mr. JP was his cousin's BM in their wedding in August)."
Me: "Wow they didn't waste anytime, did they?"
Mr. J: "Well they've been together forever. They started dating right before I moved to Indy."
Me: "Yeah, well we started dating a couple of months after you moved to Indy. So we've been together about as long as they have."
Mr. J "Oh I guess you're right!"
Me: "I seriously feel like my uterus is in a vice."
Mr. J: "You're what's in a what?"
Me: "My UTERUS is in a vice. So much pressure..."
Mr. J: "I know my grandma and my dad asked me yesterday if you're pregnant yet and when we're going to get pregnant."
Me: "Please don't talk about my uterus with other people."
Mr. J: "Okay honey... We're not in a rush, considering we don't even live together right now, I sure hope you're not pregnant."
I do love and adore all the people that are having babies. I love babies, but I am feeling an overwhelming pressue to start wanting kids. Seriously if I find out one more person is pregnant today, I'm going to scream.
XOXO
valentine's day Mrs. Jetplane has been a bad girl...

Oh and I also bought a set of t-shirt sheets in lime green. The master bedroom is navy, white, and hints of lime green. Mr. Jetplane has t-shirt sheets on his bed in Texas and says he wanted them at home. So we'll see how it goes, if I don't like them, well they'll get put to use on the air mattress.
I'm kinda a sheet snob, and I require them to be really soft. I personally enjoy an all white bed, but soon learned after we moved in together, that wouldn't be in the plan for us. You see Mr. Jetplane's body emits some weird stuff in his sleep and he literally stains the sheets. My beautiful high thread count white sheets, I bleach the crap out of them but it got to be really annoying. My mom said it was metals and impurities in his skin, I don't know what it was other than totally disgusting.
So I'll give you the update on the t-shirt sheets. I have to admit, while they do keep me warm, they remind me of shacking up with my old college boyfriend, he had jersey sheets.
So there... My shopping is all out in the open. But I promise to be good the rest of the month....
valentine's day Getting Knocked Up...
I am so unbelievably happy for them, don't get me wrong. But, it makes me really think, what the heck is wrong with me. I still feel too young to have kids, and I'm 28. I felt weird saying that when I was home Thanksgiving holding my cousin's baby, since she's 24.
I still feel awkward when people tell me they are trying to have kids. I still giggle to myself, b/c all the people I knew were always trying to "not" get pregnant.
First time I really thought that I was ready for kids was a couple of weeks before our wedding. I thought I was ready to get pregnant and have kids within the first 6 to 9 months after getting married. Well, that time is now, and needless to say not living with Mr. Jetplane makes it a little tough to get knocked up.
But that's ok, because we're not ready, well I'm not ready. I'm scared of it all. I'm scared of getting sick. I have a weird stomach and I get nauseous all the time. And I know when I'm pregnant, I'll have morning sickness, mid day sickness, middle of the night sickness, all of it. And I'm sorry, but I'm totally freaked about something growing inside my body. Maybe I'm totally immature about it, but its weird. I always think of the scene in Spaceballs when the little alien jumps out of the guy's body and proceeds to do a song and dance. (I told you I'm immature about this...) I'm also freaked out about feeding a baby with milk my body makes. Its weird and I'm not comfortable with it.
I'm sorry if I've offended anyone. I know a lot of women are actively trying to get pregnant, and I hope to someday be there with you all. But, as you can see, I'm not quite mentally prepared for this huge and miraculous gift of life. People continually reassure me that this will all change when I'm pregnant.
I hope I'm not the only one out there that feels this way. And if I am, well, all I can say is... I wasn't wrong to think I'm a complete weirdo.
valentine's day Sweet Home Chicago...
I booked my tickets today for February to head back to Chicago for a weekend of fun and a little craziness.
One of my best friends Lou (nickname to protect the innocent) is getting married in ATL very soon (yeah!) and her shower and bach party are going to be in Chicago. She from there but now living with her soon to be hubby in ATL. I get to see her and all our friends that I haven't seen since my wedding. (double YEAH!)
Also, my friend J is having her lil girl this month (hopefully in the next week) and I get to stay with her and see her new lil baby J. Oh I am so excited.
I leave in exactly 30 days. I can't wait.